The rapper shares intimate details about her life in the aftermath of her mother’s passing and the Tory Lanez shooting.

Major spoilers for Megan Thee Stallion: In Her Words below.

Megan Thee Stallion is ready to share more of her story. In Prime Video’s Megan Thee Stallion: In Her Words, the Grammy-winning Houston rapper shares intimate details about her rise to fame, her close personal and working relationship with her late mother Holly, and the 2020 Tory Lanez shooting. And in the doc’s lighter moments, we also get to see Megan experience some of her biggest career wins, like performing on Saturday Night Live, collaborating with Beyoncé on the “Savage” remix, and releasing “WAP” with Cardi B during the pandemic.

Below are some of the most noteworthy takeaways from the film, which is directed by Nneka Onuorah.

She admits that she lied to Gayle King.

In 2022, Megan sat down with CBS’s Gayle King to discuss the Tory Lanez shooting. In the interview, King asked Megan if she ever had an intimate relationship with him and Megan said no. Now, in the documentary, she admits that that was a lie. “Yes, bitch, I lied to Gayle King,” she says in the doc. “Bitch, first of all, I ain’t know that bitch was finna ask about that shit.” She then goes on to say that they were intimate once or twice “on a drunk night.”

She had to pull the plug on her mom’s life.

Megan’s mom Holly was her biggest supporter and role model (Holly was a rapper herself, and often coached Megan on how to deliver her lines and how to perform without losing her breath.) The two were inseparable, especially in the early years of Megan’s career. But one day, Holly discovered that she had a brain tumor. Megan stayed with Holly at the hospital everyday and prayed that she’d “shake back from it,” but her health rapidly deteriorated. Because Megan was the only surviving member of her immediate family—her father passed away when she was a teenager—she had to make the tragic decision to “pull the plug” and end life support; Holly passed away in 2019.

She lost herself.

“When my mama passed away, I really forgot who I was and I lost a lot of confidence,” she says in the doc. Because Holly was her advocate and cheerleader, she no longer had someone to look to for guidance, especially when it came to her career. “I was so used to my mama telling me what to do and when life started getting crazy, I didn’t have her.” Shortly after Holly’s passing, Megan began drinking heavily (“I just keep getting lit thinking I’m gonna get through this pain.”) She now calls that time “the worst year of my life.”

She holds male artists, podcasters, and content creators accountable.

When Megan initially accused Tory Lanez of shooting her, there were some men in media who didn’t believe her. In the documentary, we see clips of them questioning her story or showing public support for Lanez. A few include Joe Budden, DJ Akademiks, 50 Cent, LeBron James, DaBaby, and Drake. In one scene, we see footage of a conversation between Diddy and Lanez, with Diddy telling him, “You’re one of my favorite R&B artists,” before ominously adding, “You know I got a mean, toxic side.”

She feared being shot while performing.

“Ever since I got shot, I started having anxiety about performing,” Megan says in the documentary. “I see so many guys online say, ‘You should’ve gotten shot in the head,’ ‘He should’ve finished the job,’ ‘He should’ve killed your ass.’” We then see a TikTok clip of a random man who says, “He should’ve aimed higher.” Megan then goes on to say that she could no longer separate “trolling from real life” and questioned whether she felt safe performing in front of so many people because “I don’t know who’s in this crowd.”

She checked herself into a wellness retreat.

In November 2022, Megan says she had a “real breakdown” and checked herself into a mental health retreat at an undisclosed location. She was originally only supposed to be there for two weeks, but extended her stay to a month. “I didn’t feel like I was worthy or that my life had any kind of value,” she says in the doc. She then recalls working with a therapist who she would meet with “every day” to go over the details of the shooting. When she got back from the retreat, she said that she “felt like a new bitch.”

She cried when Tory Lanez was convicted.

Towards the end of the doc, we see Megan in the final hours before the Lanez verdict is revealed. She’s lounging at home near her pool with her team and family when someone tells her “they got him for the highest charges.” (Lanez was sentenced to 10 years in prison for shooting Megan.) Megan then breaks down sobbing while thanking God. Through tears, she says “If I didn’t think there was a God before, I know that motherfucker up there now.”